I have obviously never been a cancer survivor until now but wow, October is an exhausting for a cancer survivor! It has been so amazing to see all the awareness and attention Breast Cancer has been getting. To see people all over the nation supporting me and so many other women in all pink is breath taking. I don’t think I can tell you what it means to a survivor. Its such a wonderful feeling. The publicity for Fighting Fancy has been surreal. I never imagined so much attention. It has been great. I’m exhausted. My friends keep telling me to slow down. I keep telling them I will rest in November. No time to rest now.
My best friend had her baby tonight. Mother and baby are doing great. I just got back from the hospital and Macie is just beautiful. I was sitting in that room watching my other best friend give Ashley advice on motherhood and I couldn’t help but get emotional. I may never know what it is like to have a child or give birth. It is easy to push those emotions off from day to day but sometimes it just catches up to me. Tonight was one of those nights. I want so badly to be a mom and I hope to one day be able to.
Saturday definitely took a tole on my body. I mean it took us two hours to walk three miles. That is insane. I haven’t walked for two hours straight in well… ever. That has never happened. I woke up Sunday morning basically paralyzed. I wasn’t sore just tired. I told Derek I felt like I just went through chemo. I was that tired. I still am. For those of you who had to see me today, I am sorry. I look really sick. For some reason my eyelashes and eyebrows are just now falling out. My hair looks like a mad scientist and my skin is as white as its ever been. It can only get better from here right? Lets hope so.
This is the picture I took this morning to describe how I feel. Its pretty dead on.
On a positive note… In case you missed my interview with Beth Hunt on Channel 7, here is the LINK. She did a great job! Showed up at my house in her Fighting Fancy Tank! So happy to have met her! She has been great!
This blog post has been all over the place. Sorry, I am at the height of my chemo brain. Just forgetful and nuts.